Hi Team (I feel like we're all co-workers lightly touching the same project),
Scattered thoughts:
I saw the movie two nights ago, alone and up close (which was a he-said she-said saga in and of itself, to the point where my Lyft driver had to park and bang her head against the steering wheel because she was so irritated on my behalf about my Jenny Jones episode-worthy relationship with my "best friend"), and these are some reactions:
The violence was really jarring. Several different people, both men and women, let out some primal yelps when Tonya was hit. We're used to seeing violence in movies and in every day life all the time, but something about the way the film depicting it was really traumatic.
I was bugged yet somewhat entertained by the way they mixed up the costumes, music, and choreography. It was a weird Greatest Hits of Tonya's routines (e.g. I think Skate America 1986 had the right deep blue dress, but the French braid of 1989, and yet the vocal version of the 1990 and 1991 short program; and although they used Jurassic Park for purple cut-out dress 1994 Nationals, it morphed in to this even more grandiose Jurassic-like music for the 1994 Olympics.)
There's no way I can have an opinion on the actual events - I didn't live through them. So my mind compartmentalized this as a fictitious movie, so it wasn't a question of sympathy or not for me. The character of Tonya in this movie was absolutely abused to a ridiculous agree, kinda sorta knew that Jeff was up to some bs with Nancy (I actually felt it was confusing - it seemed like they were in on the death threat to Tonya together in 1993/94 Regionals, then she was surprised when he told her it was he who executed it; then it seemed like it was obvious she knew that he was trying to engineer death threats or any other open-ended malicious attack on Nancy, but suddenly she doesn't even know that Jeff's supposed intent was just to send death threat letters?). I actually thought it wasn't a device of the film switching unreliable narrators, but just a few plot holes.
And certainly the final message about there not being such a thing as the truth - I actually didn't quite get the desired Rashomon effect throughout the film either. What was loud and clear, though, was the indictment of us, the audience, assuming we were both there with

in 1994 and now in theaters. I actually love that Tonya screamed at us, when it came time to address the whack, "WELL THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE ALL HERE FOR!" It was very Tonya, and actually true to some degree. And the final, final message about violence and America's bloodlust for knowing how crappy other peoples' lives might be rang true.
I've waded in and out of analysis about the era (to the point of trying to actually get through this book:
https://www.worldcat.org/title/wome...hardingnancy-kerrigan-spectacle/oclc/32922466), and in my purview as a teenager in the era, the saga was definitely the seed of reality TV, and the 24-hour news cycle not just for celebrities but for regular-citizen phenomena.
So overall, the film didn't quite scratch the itch of bringing anything new to the story, depicting Tonya's supposed badass and superior skating style; but it did make me think how much the rest of your life can be messed up by living in abuse for so long.
Also, if you live in Phoenix, there's going to be a Tonya costume contest and screening on January 6:
https://drafthouse.com/news/i-tonya-costume-contest-screening
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@Vash01 , we need photos)
OK, other random thoughts:
I've been poring over Tonya routines lately, and I've got a ton of tabs open for all the articles you all have linked (let me refresh my glass of juice first).
To a degree, I grew up with abuse (but of the more "accepted" '80s variety of plain old spanking, being yelled at every day, and being made to feel like my own father hates everything I am and do), so I
somewhat get both sides of the fence in terms of sympathies towards Tonya. My closest friend does say I'm about 100x harder on myself than anyone else is and that I am on anyone else, and if I could just forgive myself and be confident, I'd be a lot happier. At the same time, I do feel like I need to just snap my fingers and get over it; that I have no excuses for my bad behavior (my bad behavior being doormat-y workaholic depressive patterns).
My position: None of us can really know what happened to Tonya and whether it's fair or not that it's carried over in to the rest of her life, and why she just can't snap her fingers and overcome. I think it's absolutely believable that Tonya's mother regularly abused her (not just once), and to me, that's enough to f*ck you up for life and struggle to stop sabotaging yourself at every corner. To get the same old thing from the person you fell in love with kicks it up. Then, and this is where it gets most dicey, if we're to believe Tonya's 2009 interview with Oprah about how the entire gang of four actually raped Tonya, and sexual abuse did happen throughout her life (e.g. marital rape), then all I feel is sadness and sympathy.
I can completely see all that abuse suddenly turning a corner in Tonya's mind when she was mature enough to start releasing her reaction to all of it. She channels it in to having to constantly be defensive, which comes out as disingenuous, whereas to the people who really deserve justice for what they did to her (mom, Jeff, etc.) - she understandably just gave up on it and decided to move on (for her own self-protective health and because there probably is no appropriate justice for all that abuse).
I think Tonya intelligently senses how ridiculous her situation is, and the multi-layered effect of her social indictment, it's just she can't articulate it well. So it comes out as angry and pig-headed, so we judge her more. She absolutely should be responsible for being the best person she can be, not mistreating others, but I can't imagine how torturous it must be to constantly have to go back to one really messed up several-month era of your life, and it feel like the 23 years of abuse that lead up to it don't matter.
So I can imagine how the "not my fault" mentality was channeled through self-defense. Innately she knows she shouldn't be abused by her mom or husband and it's unfair, so now she feels abused by a lot of other people.
(See, I'm trying to connect the dots here and am being inarticulate, so I get her frustration!)
Anyhow, about the skating:
I can't paint with a giant brush stroke and say all of Tonya's results were fair or not fair. But I do have some thoughts:
I'm also bewildered by how it seemed her presentation and musicality in 1986 were far better than the rest of her performances.
She did always have graceful arm flow and carriage, and nice "dance" hands.
There were moments when she did connect with her music and overall her presentation felt dynamic, like in her 1991 Worlds SP, and even in the slow overused saxophone part of 1991 Skate America LP.
Other than that, though, Tonya is beyond stiff and clunky. It's frustrating to watch, because I feel like she doesn't care about the program at all when she skates most of the time. She seems to be conserving energy for her jumps to a fault. And this is a really dumb statement, but I feel like if she just mentally "stretched" her moves out more, hit the highlights, she absolutely would have been perceived as still competitive in 1993/4.
I think the most telling is the 1992 Olympics. Having just watched the NHK HD videos, Nancy absolutely *appears* to be more polished in her basic presentation. But damn was each jump a struggle. Both the 3lz and 3loop were really underrotated, the 3flip was strong but tight on the landing, and the 3sal was tiny. So really, she had one strong 3toe that led to a botched combination and a regular old 2a.
But in the NHK footage, I think it's also clear that Tonya's technical content wasn't necessarily head and shoulders above either. The jumps are bigger, better in trajectory, generally better landings, jump for jump, but then you have those 2foot landings. And the lackluster presentation (not as stiff and disengaged as later in her career, but getting there).
The problem is, trusting the SP placements, the math doesn't really add up anyway. The is the most generous I can possibly get:
1) and 2) Kristi and Midori
3) Tonya
4) Chen Lu
5) Nancy
(But really I think Chen Lu should have been 3rd in the LP, Tonya and Nancy are right next to each other, and Surya and Yuka shouldn't be above them.) So at the very best, Tonya and Nancy are only 2 placements apart in the LP, which isn't enough for Tonya to take bronze, and thus starts the rolling stone of Nancy being above Tonya unfairly in every single competition in Tonya's mind. If that's indeed what Tonya thought.
But of course it was about the endorsements and ice princess crap too.
Speaking of which: the pink dress. Awww. The film depicts Tonya making the dress as a neutral attempt to fit in - not a f*ck you, more of a "I think this is what they want, so I'll give it to them" (to follow the speech patterns of LaVonna).
But awwww, the actual video of the 1990 pink Nationals dress. It actually comes off as "I'm trying as hard as I can! Is this what you want? I hope you like me and think I'm pretty now!" And then the totally disparate music and choreography.
And really - what's the difference between Tonya's homemade pink dress and Oksana's 1994 Olympics showgirl dress? Some fur shoulders and a lighter shade of pink, that's all. If only I could go back in time and have Tonya choose a lighter fabric than the Pepto she had on.
Oh wait, there's more.
Apparently there's going to be
ANOTHER 2-hour show about Tonya, on ABC, in mid-January.
http://www.nydailynews.com/entertai...c-news-truth-lies-interview-article-1.3711746
There's one clip I can't find again about Tonya living in a small town, driving her Jeep she fixed up, from the late 2000s. It's just about how she enjoys the Pacific NW, and has nothing to do with Nancy or skating. It's the most genuinely happy and relaxed I've ever seen Tonya on film.
To close (sorry), the most heartbreaking moment in the film to me was the skate lace scene.
Watching it live in 1994, I thought, "She's faking it to get to as close as the final group as possible!"
But maybe she really did have way more equipment problems than most and was disorganized enough to have not prepared for something like this.
And maybe, like the Canadian judge said, she really latched on to the strategy of stopping and making a scene (as to how that would possibly translate to higher scores and placements in her mind, I have no idea).
Because it really could have been all planned. I mean, why would the spare lace they happen to have be one that's not fit for really lacing up a skate?
But in watching the film, for the first time, I felt like the crying was due to the pressure of Tonya's months of media circus and years of abuse all coming crashing down. That she's trying to put on a brave face for her figure skating presentation and can't take it anymore. I felt really bad.
So I rewatched the make-up scene, where originally I thought she was trying to practice the happy presentation despite her tears:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iY2NLPKpK1Q
But maybe she was practicing her tears as well ...