First, I pray Charlie's family gets the emotional support they need whether from family, clergy or professional grief therapists.
On August 2, 1996 I had an emergency caesarean after my baby, Joshua, went into fetal distress. My beautiful 5 pound son was born with severe merconium inhalation requiring he be connected to a respirator ASAP. The merconium burned the lining of his lungs. His Apgar score was 3, the second score was 7. Within hours he developed pulmonary hypertension, he had internal bleeding in one lung, the other collapsed. He had tubes in his arms, legs, head and down his throat. He developed sepsis.
On August 3rd the doctor told us her back was to the wall as far as our son was concerned. Then on the 5th the doctor came to us with a permission form to try an experimental treatment, developed by the March of Dimes, which could repair the damage to our son's lungs. I didn't hesitate, I signed the form and the medication was administered to Joshua. Five days later, Joshua took his first breath on his own. On August 12th he was discharged from the hospital.
The experimental treatment is now administered to all preemies to help their lungs mature.
Reading Charlie's story and thinking about my son's fight, I honestly don't know what I would had done had that experimental treatment not been available. Woukd I have the strength to let my son go if the doctors felt it was in his best interest? Would I had searched the planet for a miracle?