My only hope from all of this is that Gracie is taking her performance in stride. It was obvious (to everyone and even herself as she admitted it) that she wasn't exactly trained for this event. I'm thinking they wanted to rip the band aid off and just get out there and compete. Get the experience, re-introduce the feel for competition, and see how she reacted. Knowing where she was in terms of her training and still showing up anyway takes a lot of courage.
The fact that she was wise enough to know going for the FS wasn't good for her mentally is amazing--that shows growth and strength to override your determination/pride/ego or whatever it is and say, "No, this isn't healthy for me." I'm glad she stepped away and on her terms.
I didn't care for her coaches reactions to her performance. They just sat next to her looking awkward. No one patted her on the back or put an arm around her or even seemed to be talking to her after her SP. I just remember Brian's words of encouragement after Evgenia's first few performances back. Brian was right there telling her it was okay, it's a process, commending her for what she did do well...basically encouraging her. I don't know what Gracie's relationship is with her coaches but what we saw in the K&C was not reassuring that she's in the right hands for the task she's undertaking.
Of course only Gracie knows her reasons for competing here but, IMO and it's just my opinion, I think it'd have been better to take this year to get herself together physically, mentally and emotionally before jumping back in the deep end. She'd have been in better shape and her jumps would have been stronger which would have given her the confidence to go out and hopefully have a stronger skate. I get why she chose to compete here...I just hope this performance will be a positive for her and not a setback. It's up to the team around her to make sure she sees it that way.
Lastly, I do wonder if coming back to competition is wise for her given her past struggles. The sport gave her a lot but it also took a lot from her. Going back into a situation that caused you so many problems might not be the best thing considering she's still in the process of healing from the initial damage it caused. Then again, as she's wiser now and can spot those problems, she may be better equipped to handle/manage those things. Still, it's a tall order for anyone. I guess it depends on what she's hoping to get out of coming back. Does she want to be US champion again? Is her goal to be competitive internationally? Is she aiming for 2020? Or is she just here to skate, compete and end her career on her terms?
Either way I support her. She has a long way to go but at least that very first step (the hardest one) is out of the way now.