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Eteri Tutberidze’s message: past year, parents, skating.
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“Less than a year ago I wrote a message, wanted to share my feelings which I felt during that period. My friends stopped me from making it public, believing it would be a weakness on my part at that time.
*** The strange, mixed feelings inside.
It seemed like at the apogee of sports accomplishments and professional happiness, after years of working non-stop, leading to two Olympic medals (gold and silver), not one but two, is it not the time to be happy, or at least to smile?
But instead, there is a lump in your throat, a lump of unexpressed pain.
So, no longer holding it back, I am writing.
On the day we were departing to Japan for the Olympics preparations, my Mother had a stroke, at first it lead to partial paralysis, later it was determined – cancer of the brain.
So what is then?
Then it is all in a fog. My daughter is placed in a school dormitory, so that she does not remain alone. My mother is in the hospital in a most critical condition. Tears of my daughter on the telephone, who stayed in Moscow, alone. My mother’s fight for life, who has incurable condition.
Olympics.
Medals.
Victory Ceremony.
People congratulating, looking into my eyes, seeking happiness in response, but as if it is not there.
Pain.
And upon return to Moscow – a fight, constant daily fight for mother’s life, even if partially unconscious. My mind refusing to accept that mother’s death is inevitable.
My father did not make it and died 6 months before the Sochi Olympics. My mother lost her awareness and could not enjoy the outcome of these Olympics.
What’s next? Strange departures of my students, one of which I praised and raised as an example for everyone; the one to whom I honestly gave 200% of the 100% possible in sports.
Then accusations… that none other can be more hurtful.
Dear god, I am forever grateful, that many years of work brought the highest results. And send more strength to turn this page in life.
**** And now, as this season passed, I can say, I turned the page.
Thank you to all my friends, close people and to My Parents.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BvZWw-ygSPQ/
“Less than a year ago I wrote a message, wanted to share my feelings which I felt during that period. My friends stopped me from making it public, believing it would be a weakness on my part at that time.
*** The strange, mixed feelings inside.
It seemed like at the apogee of sports accomplishments and professional happiness, after years of working non-stop, leading to two Olympic medals (gold and silver), not one but two, is it not the time to be happy, or at least to smile?
But instead, there is a lump in your throat, a lump of unexpressed pain.
So, no longer holding it back, I am writing.
On the day we were departing to Japan for the Olympics preparations, my Mother had a stroke, at first it lead to partial paralysis, later it was determined – cancer of the brain.
So what is then?
Then it is all in a fog. My daughter is placed in a school dormitory, so that she does not remain alone. My mother is in the hospital in a most critical condition. Tears of my daughter on the telephone, who stayed in Moscow, alone. My mother’s fight for life, who has incurable condition.
Olympics.
Medals.
Victory Ceremony.
People congratulating, looking into my eyes, seeking happiness in response, but as if it is not there.
Pain.
And upon return to Moscow – a fight, constant daily fight for mother’s life, even if partially unconscious. My mind refusing to accept that mother’s death is inevitable.
My father did not make it and died 6 months before the Sochi Olympics. My mother lost her awareness and could not enjoy the outcome of these Olympics.
What’s next? Strange departures of my students, one of which I praised and raised as an example for everyone; the one to whom I honestly gave 200% of the 100% possible in sports.
Then accusations… that none other can be more hurtful.
Dear god, I am forever grateful, that many years of work brought the highest results. And send more strength to turn this page in life.
**** And now, as this season passed, I can say, I turned the page.
Thank you to all my friends, close people and to My Parents.
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what does not kill her, makes her stronger..
