Hey all, I thought I would do an update here. My autoimmune system is attacking my brain and body. They are doing a lot of test and every inch of me has been xrayed, MRI, EEG, EKG, and more. I've had at least 40 vials of blood taken out of me. Now it's waiting time. They are also doing genetics and DNA testing.
what we do know is the outer lining of the nerves from my brain to my body are being attacked. when this happens, the brain can't tell the body what to do. right now it's not bad. i start to walk and all of a sudden no legs or my legs go numb and i can stay up, but the legs become jelly. Same with my arms. arms are mainly in the morning. which I can deal with, but i can't get coffee. lol.
They have confirmed I have RA and sjogren's syndrome, so far. lupus and ms have been bandied about.
I have a stimuli issues with brain. If you want to read about it, here is a good link.
http://www.braininjury-explanation.com/consequences/invisible-consequences/overstimulation-flooding
2 weeks ago I was in the hospital for pneumonia and between the iv steroids and a roommate that had every member of her large family in there, I was in crisis mode. unfortunately, the unit i was in, the nurses had no clue what i was trying to tell them, and they made it worse. when i get like this, it's like a full born panic attack and i become blind. my new brain doesn't know how to settle itself down. so i go into full flight or fight mode. I tried hiding in the bathroom, but the nurse just yelled at me.
after 36 hours, a respiratory therapist that was on duty who works the brain injury unit came an saw what condition i was in. She told the nurses what was going on and they put me into a private isolation room. after a few hours I calmed down. Lighting, smell, stress, noise, movement and all can set this off. I just wanted to go home by then. home is my safe place. i have episodes here, but i feel safe and can navigate the house blindly. The kittens and cats are great to.
It's an issue i work on a lot. it's just training my brain what to do. I can handle 2-3 people now in the same room. my house has soft lighting and things. i have scents that calm me down. I am fine if i have my focus things. computer is one of them.
Good news! I have a seasonal job with Amazon answering phones from drivers and giving them codes. it's slow moving and the hours are when my body and brain are working the best. Amazon has been wonderful and has a division that works with me.
I had to get the job. The bills are piling up from test, therapy, ubers, vitamins and doctors/hospitals. i don't have enough income to get a home loan. i also need to make my bathroom handicap accessible. i can't get in and out of the tub, so it's been 22 months since i have had a shower or bath on my own. the door needs to be widen and I need a special higher toilette. I also need a bed that won't hurt me. i can't do those posterpedic beds since i am allergic to the foam. So I am thinking a waterbed. i had one in the 70/80s and it was perfect. Also, I can heat it at night and that should keep my joints happy.
Social security is trying to throw a wrench into my working. Amazon is going to try and work with them.
I'm doing good mentally. My new brain doesn't allow me to dwell on things. I still have kittens and how can you be depressed with kittens around. once in a while i will throw a pity party, but it doesn't last more then a day. You need to be able to mourn to move on.
I have eliminated a lot of negative people from my life and have some of the best friends anyone could have. My neighbors have also been wonderful. giving me rides when they can, and checking in on me. i have a girl that comes in every other week who does the tough cleaning and I can maintain it between times. We are working on organizing right now. she is also a CNA and when the time comes, she will take over medical care so i won't have to go into assisted living.
so that is about it for now. thank you for all your prayers and support. It means a lot to me.
If anyone has suggestions on beds, i am open. i have a pillow top, but i am up every hour in horrible pain. also it's too high and is a fall issue.