Oh, skatesindreams, I'm glad you were able to enjoy both of your parents in their golden years, and that for most of their lives they were spared the heartbreak of mental deterioration. Somehow,even in dealing with the vascular dementia my Mom is experiencing, I have learned invaluable life lessons. Who she is, her essence, is still very present and she still communicates very well. She's still "Mom" who reprimands and points out important things I often overlook. But yes, it is extremely hard to see the physical and mental changes she is going through. The worst for me has been the fact it's difficult to find a supportive, competent and compassionate nursing home (that's a whole 'nother story). Even the best of them generally have problems and tend to lead to a downhill slide. Throughout it all, my Mom has maintained her sense of self and her dignity. She's still here because of how much she loves us and how much we love her.