I have taken quite a few skating tests. How it felt - relieved, happy, but sometimes embarrassed if I knew that I skated much worse than my usual standard, sometimes even disappointed that I passed if I thought I had extremely bad day and I felt I wouldn’t pass it if I was the judge....
Once I skated while being ill. My coach was away and arranged with another coach that she would look after me at the test. I woke up at 5am on the morning of the test and found out that I feel really rough, (like when you have the flu). With my coach I would call and cancel it, she knows me so she would understand, but I felt embarrassed to phone this coach who was supposed to look after me because by calling her I would already wake her up (at 5am) so I decided to go ahead and risk it. It was a disaster! First I couldn’t take my winter jacket off, because the zipper got stuck. So while I was supposed to be having a warm up, the coaches were pulling my jacket over my head -it took some effort of several people to get the jacket off! Then I got on the ice with the blade covers on! (Immediately fell down, obviously). Trying to skate, all my muscles hurt so badly (having the flu is quite painful!) and I felt so tired and a bit spaced out. Then in the middle of my test I crashed into the barrier! It was solo compulsory dances and I made the pattern too big. Luckily, my other dance was apparently very, very good and the dance with the crash was also good if one didn’t count the crash, so the judge asked me to reskate that dance. I was so nervous! I managed to not crush the second time, and the judge passed me. At first I was happy and relieved. I went straight to bed because I felt really rough. Looking back I had such mixed feelings about the whole thing. On one side I saw the funny side, when things start going wrong, it can be one thing after the the other, like in a bad comedy. On the other hand I did feel quite disappointed that I passed because I knew I could do so much better and if you put so much time into it, you want to show your best.