My coach, who is very logical and often attributes struggles with specific elements to inhibitory thought processes, was talking about the simplicity of the mechanics of single jumps, and said something to the effect of "everyone" having the ability to learn the single jumps very easily. Often she has said things that cause me to think about how I initially learned things, when I was a kid, and it makes me mad at myself for not being able to just do stuff. This applies to learning those single jumps. When I was a kid, the only single jump I was not able to land correctly the first time I worked on it with the coach, was the Lutz jump (axel isn't exactly a single jump, so I'm not counting it in this). The coach explained a jump and by the end of the lesson I could do and land it (sloppy, but good enough that it looked like what it was). I didn't really think about what I was doing, I just did what I was told to do. Now, re-training so I can do these things again at my age (55) with an extra 30 lbs, is full of thinking and thinking and thinking, along with excessive hesitancy and inhibition. Why can't I just follow the logical of the mechanics of the jumps and just do the things? It took way too much effort to be able to do salchows again (I was doing them 3 years ago), and I should not be having so much trouble getting myself to to do loops (can only do it holding the wall, too hesitant to even try it otherwise). Flip is more complicated, but it was my favorite jump, and I can imagine doing them in detail in my head as if they are so easy (well, they used to be), but I can only walk through them (can do a half flip, but the forward landing with the toes makes it too different from a flip to be really useful as an exercise; I originally was doing flips at least half a year before I even knew what a half flip was). (I don't have the issues with spins that I do with jumps. They are a matter of physical conditioning, positions, and timing; can't do a camel if I can't get my leg in that position due to not being stretchy enough anymore, nor a sitspin with my knees and muscles so out of conditioning and weak... those spins will both happen when I stop being too lazy to do off-ice exercises).