I know people hate novels (and I'm novel writer), so maybe we can keep this short and hope the specifics don't really matter. Generalization story ...
In just a split second matter of time, I did something stupid at work that has caused my boss to lose trust in me. He confronted me, I panicked so stalled and sort of tried to deny it, then finally said something stupid like "if I did, I didn't even realize what I was doing and I apologize". Yea, I know ... stupid!! But its too late to change that now. Like I said, I panicked and my brain was not working.
I don't know what to do. I am now off work until Thursday and I know he is very angry at me. Heck, he might even be working with HR to discipline me (taking the pesemistic view). What should I do? Should I call him tomorrow and explain how sorry I am and explain why I .. let's call a spade a spade ... I lied at first? Or should I let it rest until Thursday when I return to work?
I feel like shyte. I have never felt this bad about myself in my entire life, for anything, E-V-E-R! It was a stupid thing to do, he caught it, he contronted me, I lied, then threw out a "fake apology". How can I ever repair this and gain his trust again? I think the worst part was I lied at first. When he confronted me, I should have said it was a mistake, I did not mean to do it, I quickly realized it and stopped ... but I didn't so I can't change that now. How do I fix this?
And no, it was nothing criminal. Just a stupid office mistake.