http://others.sport-express.ru/reviews/13618/ by Maria Nikulashkina Most importantly - to remember who you are. MN: Summing things up, is the 3rd place in Europeans and 12 at worlds the result for which it was worth changing your whole life? TV: Obviously am not thrilled with my 12th place. Not with the 3rd either actually. At the beginning of the season I was considered the best skater in Europe and I wanted to remain one. Both in Bern and Moscow. But I wasn't that lucky. MN: Was it the tiredness? TV: No physically - at the end of my LP I did all 4 jumps, did the steps sequence and the spin. All was fine. But I started skating too slowly - twice slower than on practices, according to my coach. Perhaps that's the reason. I'll try to improve next year. I have to work on my head- after all the psychological factor is very important, especially at the end of hte competition. It is what decides who will be a champion and who wont'. So I lost to myself. MN: In one of the interviews you compared yourself to a 58y.o Czech horse rider who all of a sudden beat everyone. Really, at your not yet 25 do you consider yourself old? TV: Not at all. But after the not too successful season many people back home wrote me down. I don't think so myself, hence I gave that example. I was thrilled to see what happened to him - his son took place in the same competition, but it was he who won. Even though no one expected him to. Everyone kept asking `grandpa, what are you doing here?'. But most important is to know what can you do and believe in yourself. Of course I'm not getting any younger. Just like everyone else. Many would love to, but so far no one succeeded. Nevertheless, I'm not too old yet. I'm 24 and now I realize I can skate to a music that I couldn't when I was younger. I think am now in the age when I can enjoy skating. In Canada, where I moved to train things work differently. I work on each element separately - the steps, the spins, the gliding, the jumps. I reckon it will pay out in the future. I dont' plan to retire. It would be a silly thing to do. If I can wake the fighter in me next year all will be good. Am actuall ylooking forward for the next season and eager to start working. Last season was successful all and all. Yes, the worlds didn't go well for me. But I did well in Grand Prix, especially here in Moscow, got to GPF. I was not brilliant, but decent in Europeans. The first part of the worlds was fine as well. I made a mistake, but it happens. In the LP I left all the thoughts beind and was skating for the audience. They were amazing! I would love to thank them so much. After my first jumps didn't happen I looked at the audience and nto the judges and realized why I love skating so much - it is because of those people. MN: The audience loves you and you love them back. Does being so popular gets on you? TV: Figure skating for me is a rollercoaster. Up and down, up and down. I have some doubts about my skating past. there are decision that I should had taken earlier or done differently. But I will never regret giving people emotions. Found in Toronto all I was lookng for. MN: After the not too successful last season did you consider retiring? TV: Not at all - I did not yet achieve all my goals. Yes, I was drained, I couldn't possibly fall any lower. But it was not the mood I wanted to finish my career on. Besides, I have some fans of my own - I could not disappoint them so much just because I wasn't happy. deeeedeeeee deeeee deeeee You know when it was really hard? When I got the swine flu in Skate America and had problems with WADA - because of the misunderstanding they gave me a notice and I was facing a 2 years disqualification. It's a disaster in my age. That was a moment I considered retiring. But after the season was over those thoughts were gone. Quite the opposite - I kept thinking how can I improve my skating. It was very hard to part with the team in Oberstdorf. I spent 8 years with those people, we had great success btu last spring I realized that I need something new, something bigger. It was a hard decision to make, but I had to. MN: You mention being all over the USA and Canada during the summer. What were you looking for? TV: First of all the coach. I tried working with several but it didn't really work out. I met Emerson quite by chance. I was working with Brian Orser in Toronto. He was busy with Adam Rippon, perhaps with Yuna Kim and had to leave for 4 days. I had to skate on another rink which was managed by Emerson. I had some troubles with my jumps and he just came over and gave me some advice. I didn't ask him to give me a lesson, he didn't ask tp be payed. He just gave an advice and it helped alot. We worked together for 2-3 days and I amde a decision. Toronto is a wonderful city. I have friends there and a family who could host me. My choreographer Lory Nickol lives there as well and it's close to Detroit, where the other choreographer - Camerlengo workds. Besides, there is an option to study in the uni if I decide to stay there. At the end all worked perfectly - I found exactly what I was looking for durnig the summer. MN: A bit like a fairytale. TV: Yeah. But the tale would be nicer if at the end of the championship I was standing on the podium, even if not on the top and was thrilled with a medal. So my tale is not over yet. I really want to become a world medalist, to be on the podium and be able to thank everyone who supported me those years. To tell them it was not for nothing, they believed in me and I did it. But perhaps I should just forget about it because wanting something too badly kills the dream. MN: Even if you never win a worlds medal - will you consider you career a success? TV: I will be hugely disappointed. Of course I will not throw my figure skating life away - I found so many friends, new experiences, I've been all over the world, met interesting people. Perhaps it will help me in the future life. But it would be a disappointed not to medal at worlds. It would mean I did not achieve my main goal. Of course there would be no regrets. If I had a chance to go through all of it again - I would. MN: What about the olympics: Have you got a goal therE? TV: You know Brian Joubert? Let me tell you something about him. I like that guy. I lost him at the Europeans, but was not disappointed at all - I admire him and what he does on the ice. I like him as a person too. The Olympics is a taboo for Brian. He wants to medal there so badly but it doesn't happen - because he wants it so much. Joubert participated 3 Olympics and it never happened for him. My Olympics were a disaster - I was 18th in Turin and 19th in Vancouver. I.e. in 4 years I became 1 place worse. It's awful! It's a hard topic for me. Every athlete dreams of an Olympcis medal. If I could have won one I would say my career could not possibly be more successful. I will try to fight for a medal in Sochi. I realize there are so many new amazing skaters, yet I do not plan to stand aside and let them ahead of me. If I feel capable to fight I will participate the Games in 2014, it will be my goal. It would be a good end for the career. MN: Have you ever been to Sochi? TV: No. My grandparents have during the USSR times. I saw some photos. Just the sea and the beach. I haven't seen any mountains nor sports centres. But from my experience I can only say if the Russians decided to pull something they will and they will do great. I have no doubts about that. There is much more in the interview but have to go now. Will try to translate at night.