TSL's Interview with Mary Beth Marley

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  1. Sylvia

    Sylvia On to GP & U.S. Sectionals!

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    http://www.theskatinglesson.com/mary-beth-marley-interview/
    Link to the 1 hour+ interview: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxoeUC9N8dA
    At around the 30-min. mark, Mary Beth talks about how she decided to leave her partnership and the sport a year ago when the physical and mental toll (from a lifelong struggle with perfectionism (ETA: she never actually said "eating disorder")/issues of self-control) was becoming too much to bear and was starting to affect her skating/daily training. She says that things got a lot worse after she stopped skating before she could embark on a full recovery process. Today she is working with Chicago area coach Mary Alice Antensteiner, choreographing for her students, skating for herself, and keeping the door open to the possibility of competing again in the future. She credits Antensteiner for playing a big part in her recovery.

    "A look into a day in the life of Mary Beth Marley as she continues her recovery and embarks on a return to the sport." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1HIaorPioc (3 mins.)
     
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  2. ~tapdancer~

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    That was a great interview and she truly is a brave young woman to finally face her problem head on and recover while she is still young and has a bright future. She had so many good things to say about Rockne, too, and I admire him for accepting her decision knowing that it affected him as well. I would have loved to see them achieve great things but I'm so glad she has found her way to health and happiness. Maybe one day we'll see her again on the ice.
     
  3. Rock2

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    MB looked so stressed out and unhappy in her last year with Rockne and there is such a difference now...in a good way. You can appreciate her eating disorder now that her body has transformed into what I would call a normal state. Even with the normal diet and active life that she has now it's incredible to try and understand what she put herself through to achieve the small size she was when she competed.

    Sounds like she's finding her way and has already come so far as to be able to talk about it. Great for her!
     
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  4. Garden Kitty

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    She's a lovely young lady and I wish her all the best. I admire her strength in discussing her personal issues as I'm sure there are a lot of people who can learn from her willingness to share.
     
  5. BittyBug

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    This is so true. Eating disorders are like vampires - they not only suck the life out of you, they thrive in the darkness of secrecy and the veil of shame. The first step to recovery is shining a bright light on them and ending the denial. We heard MBM herself cite Jennifer Kirk's openness as a lifeline that helped her feel less alone, and I'm sure MBM's candor will similarly spark other young women (and men) to seek help.

    I was really impressed by the depth of emotional maturity that Mary Beth displayed. Kudos to her and to Jenny and Dave for so openly addressing such a sensitive topic.
     
  6. caseyedwards

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    The total quitting of the sport makes complete sense now! It was a complete bafflement before and all there was rumors and allegations of bulimia anorexia etc! Good to talk about! Teach others. Mbm role could be as teacher and mentor!
     
  7. fan

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    she's a very brave young girl to share her story, and i'm sure we all wish her the best in her recovery. all of these young kids put so much into the sport. as fans, I hope they know that we just want them to be happy.
     
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  8. stjeaskategym

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    She really was thrown into a tough situation, and pair skating itself requires a rather specific mental state. It's a shame that someone at 4'9" still felt so much pressure to stay so small.

    It was a valiant effort, but you could tell it was quite difficult for her to give that interview. She kind of danced around several of the questions pertaining to her eating disorder and struggles. Even though it was quite clear they were discussing an eating disorder (and Jenny flat out said it), she avoided using those words. Perhaps it will become easier for her to talk about it as time goes on and she continues in her recovery.

    I can't imagine how difficult it must have been in the months right after she left the sport, especially with the guilt she was feeling in having her family sacrifice so much for her to skate pairs. She is very brave for the way she handled this situation and got the help she needs. It's great that she loves coaching because that should help her to find all of the time and effort she put into high level skating to be really worth it despite the premature ending.
     
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  9. genevieve

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    yeah, I noticed that MBM never actually said she had an eating disorder and sidestepped all of the direct questions Jenny asked her about how the disorder manifested itself. She looked truly anguished at times. But in general she was amazingly articulate and even funny about her experiences (when she talked about going to a regular school for the first time since 3rd grade!), and very, very level headed. Absolute best wishes to her, on and off the ice.
     
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    Oh the irony of Tai Babilonia, who also struggles from an eating disorder, ranting about US pairs skaters who don't stick together through all of their problems, both in general and with a shout-out to Marley/Brubaker, when walking away from skating gave Marley a chance to have a physically and mentally healthy rest-of-her-life.
     
  11. DarrellH

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    How brave of her.
     
  12. Loves_Shizuka

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    This was a really good one - MBM came across as articulate and thoughtful. I also sense that she isn't quite as comfortable as she might be, but things like this take time. It isn't like healing a broken leg. I wish her all the best :)
     
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    I agree she comes across as relly intellegent, articulate, and really level headed about this whole thing. Wishing her all the best in the future.
     
  14. Jozet

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    As a parent of an athlete nowhere near Mary Beth's talent or potential, but one who still works hard and probably has questions some days about why she's doing this and who she's doing it for, this interview is sobering. Possibly required viewing for parents before they ever sign-up their kid for a sport. Once parents start spending time and money and other adults or teammates start depending on a kid, the pressures can just build-up whether we realize it or not. Somewhere, in spite of the depth of her problem, she was given the message that the sport was hers to own or to walk away from, and that she would still be loved. And that she was worth more than even the Olympics. Somewhere along the line, a lot of people did a lot of the right things with and for this kid.

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  15. Alixana

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    Beautifully put. Agree with your entire post.
     
  16. LilJen

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    She captures really well how EDs come from within--and how hard it is to escape your brain sending you wrong messages. She showed how it isn't necessarily one thing in particular external to yourself that triggers it (and it even continued after she quit skating, so nobody can say "skating caused her ED"). I hope that she's able to continue developing healthy eating habits and healthy ways of coping with stress, and I hope she doesn't have any lingering health issues from the disorder.

    She also conveyed very well how difficult it is for someone with these issues to talk about it, especially given that she's not that far out from her worst. I imagine Jenny was trying to get her to give more specifics because that's probably part of the recovery process--and MB just isn't quite there yet. She admitted that it's still a work in progress.
     
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  17. Jozet

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    Agreed. I hope it didn't come across that I thought skating or any outside pressures caused the eating disorder. :)

    Mary Beth was so clear in saying that sports even at elite levels can be done with health foremost in mind. I was just noting that sometimes it's so hard to know what kids are going through mind, body, and soul...especially during the sometimes difficult years when even the most level-headed teens are struggling with suddenly new bodies and emotions. I just thought Mary Beth's interview was a good reminder for me to be open to listening and letting go of my wants for my kid, and to remember that this is her journey.

    As much as I know that some kids do struggle with different kinds of issues when involved in elite sports, it really bugs me when people immediately assume that a girl participating dance or gymnastics or skating is on track for unavoidable weight and body image problems.
     
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  18. skatesindreams

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    I wish Mary Beth the very best; and a happy, healthy life,
    She is a young woman to admire.
     
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    There's nothing contradictory about these two things: an event or situation can trigger/cause behavior that continues throughout someone's life. People don't suddenly become "cured" by walking away from a situation/trauma or drug rehab would be a permanent fix. Throughout the interview Kirk was gently trying to point out the ways in which the culture of skating creates pressure and sends unspoken messages and group think about weight, eating, body image, and "perfect princess" syndrome in which the pressures are internalized and encourage obsessive behavior. Her insistence that everything was her responsibilty sounds to me like a vestige of the control issue that started the behavior in the first place. Of course it's critical for her to understand her triggers and recognized when her brain is trying to "trick" her to think in old familiar patterns, and it sounds like she's being vigilent about it, to prevent herself from falling into them just because the outside situation has changed.
     
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  20. halffull

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    Glad she made it clear that in her mind her issues have to do with her personality and not necessarily with skating, Rockne or her coaches. I wish MBM all the very best for a long, happy, healthy life.
     
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    I don't think Tai was arguing for skaters with serious health issues to stick with it no matter what. Wasn't it just a general desire for more U.S. pair skaters to stay together? Lots of us here have expressed similar wishes here on this board.
     
  22. Simone411

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    I agree. I don't think, at least the way I understand it, that Tai was arguing either.

    Sylvia, thanks for posting the link to the great interview.
     
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    Yes and no: she was willing to judge Marley/Brubaker specifically without having a clue without knowing what the issues were, and her attitude in general was "These kids don't suck it up and get through the rough times like they did in my day."

    While I think it sucks when one partner is able to toss aside previous partners because someone makes a better offer, and that the time it takes to adjust to the new partner isn't often any less than working through issues with the old one, I've never been on the "US Pairs would be great if they stuck it out" bandwagon, because it's not anyone's obligation to stick to something for which they are forking out huge sums and in most cases impacting their families greatly in addition to the mental and physical stress they're under to skate in the first place. Soviet pairs were the undisputed best and dominant for many years while some of those men physically abused their female partners in the rink under the eyes of their coaches and other skaters.

    I'd much rather see pairs and dance team members be able to make rational decisions about their skating careers and goals, which can change over time. It's not as if people who spend hours and hours in the rink and off ice training for years, who give up the "normal" lives as teenagers and young adults, and whose families spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on training, move and split up the families to accommodate their training, are slackers who give up partnerships on a whim, but even if they were, it's their time and their dime.
     
  24. BittyBug

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    Many posts in this thread mention weight and body image. While EDs are usually initially prompted by some type of body image dysmorphia, they become rooted when they transform into a tool to manage emotions. Although EDs involve food, the worst and most intractable aspect of their nature has little to do with weight. To wit, what both MBM and Jenny emphasized is the control aspect of EDs, which is not related to food but rather using food as a tool to cope with feelings. EDs are not a diet gone awry - they're much more complex than that. (Just wanted to comment on this to make sure the situation isn't overly simplified. )

    And I'm not surprised that MBM didn't articulate exactly how her disease manifested itself (other than her hint at exercise bulimia via overindulgence in hot yoga). There is a tremendous amount of shame associated with purging, and our society as a whole does not approve of openly discussing any means of evacuating one's system, much less one that is voluntarily self-inflicted.
     
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    The emphasis on weight in skating, though, gives a structual and accepted way to manifest these control issues. Babilonia talked about the almost inescapable messages about weight to which almost all women are subjected, but several times she emphasized those activities where weight control is integral, and mentioned skaters, dancers, and another group (gymnasts?) when she talked about disordered eating and the way weight control is institutionalized. She even said that John Nicks told her the one thing he would change is that if he did it all over again, he wouldn't weigh his female skaters, and it doesn't get more institutionalized than weigh-ins.

    I've seen disordered eating issues among wrestlers publicized, where purging can be part of the "make weight" routine, but much less for boxers and marial arts athletes who also have weight classes.
     
  26. peibeck

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    I personally told MBM at 2012 4CCs that she was a rockstar! I re-iterate that comment today and wish her all the best! :respec:
     
  27. demetriosj

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    Glad she was strong enough to quit and put her health first and foremost. Kudos to her!!!!

    This sport can chew you up and spit you out.... Most of these competitive skaters are children on the verge of their teen years, a terribly turbulent time even under normal circumstances (i.e. not being involved in a cut-throat sport).

    Unfortunately, there are a lot of coaches and parents who are not sensitive to that, nor do they care what their skater is going through as long as they are winning.
     
  28. Lacey

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    I think it's astounding that MBM was able to pull herself out, that, at such a young age, she was able to sense--this is not right, and I am out of here. The only thing better would be for the USFS to hire her to show skaters some alternate routes, even if it's just that there is possible coaching after competing, but that's not going to happen.
     
  29. literaryfreak

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    She has an incredible amount of perspective and self-awareness for her age (or any age!). It can't be easy to reveal such painful feelings on camera either, to be put on youtube. She'll be helping so many others too, as Jenny did for her! :respec:
     
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  30. demetriosj

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    Sadly, I don't think USFS gives a care what happens to skaters once they are no longer winning medals for the U.S......