Should I go to the hospital?

Discussion in 'Off The Beaten Track' started by Gazpacho, Jan 31, 2014.

  1. immoimeme

    immoimeme having a nice day

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    Sometimes you don't. Is that a concept you can be comfortable with?

    It's gd you're letting us know what's going on. Keep posting. :)
  2. AragornElessar

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    I hope it's the change w/the drugs and only that. I'm on Predinsone to keep my Kidney Transplant happy and when there's a change made w/it, I am not the easiest person to be around for about two weeks. It very well could be your system reacting to the changes. I really hope so.

    Don't feel bad about not wanting to be around anyone right now, as has been said already, it's normal and it's also okay. I hope you can figure out Home Delivery, as that would be fantastic IMO for you. Especially right now when tapering off one drug and starting another will have you feeling off right now. The less stress to deal w/right now is what you need and this would really help out on that score IMO.

    Please keep checking in and I think you being so open and honest w/us about your battle, is one of the bravest things I've seen around this place during my time as a Member. Will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!
  3. barbk

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    Hi Gazpacho--

    I hope you're getting some sleep, but if not, I'm around & thinking about you.
  4. cruisin

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    Yes, it is totally normal to withdraw and want to be alone. It is exhausting just trying to deal with your own thoughts and feelings. Adding another person's is insurmountable. But, as others have said, someone close should know the situation, in case of an emergency.

    The social media program you are starting sounds fantastic. the first time I dealt with real depression, was post partum. Back then, you didn't talk about it. If there had been a place to discuss it anonymously, with no judgement, I might have found out I was not alone and not have suffered as much. Since then, the OCD and panic attacks started. It was like the post partum depression kick started some of it. Though the eating disorders began long before, so clearly I was ripe for depression. Thankfully, over the years, I have learned to recognize when I am going to the "dark side" and can manage it better. I know that writing in threads like this is cathartic for me. Being able to express dealing with my illness, and being able to understand and try to support others (here) helps. I wonder, will the social media platform, you are developing, require some way of locating persons who are in serious trouble?

    It may be the meds. How did you feel after you stopped crying? I sometimes think that crying is the bodies way of releasing tension. I always feel better after I cry. It releases endorphins which can elevate our mood.
    WE are here for you. Please, please keep us updated. We worry :).
  5. iloveemoticons

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    ((Gazpacho)) Adding my thoughts and prayers. Glad you are getting treatment and hope you feel better soon!
  6. Wyliefan

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    We're here for you, Gazpacho. *hugs* Lots of prayers going up.
  7. LilJen

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    Praying that you will feel better soon, Gazpacho. Antidepressant meds are frustrating--sometimes they can take a couple of weeks to really start to take effect, and I remember feeling like I couldn't wait that long to start feeling better :mad: Many hugs to you.
  8. skatesindreams

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    You are not alone,
    We care about what you are going through and are here to support you.
  9. immoimeme

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    How are you today? Let us know!:)
  10. Gazpacho

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    Thanks again for all your support. The Latuda is making me gain weight. It's well-documented that drugs in this category screw up your metabolism. It sucks, and it's making me depressed.

    Last night I had a nightmare so that I woke up feeling exhausted from the sleep. Does anyone else experience that?

    OMG Prednisone is awful! I was prescribed it for an allergic reaction, and it turned me into an irritable monster! Gave me acne too.
  11. cruisin

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    I have never taken Latuda, or any drugs in that class. I did have trouble with missing a dose with Imipramine. And I had trouble with Prozac and Zoloft, I would be exhausted around 9:00PM, fall asleep, and wake up at 2:00AM and not be able to get back to sleep. They really screwed up my sleep patterns. They also gave me jittery legs. I do better on other types of meds.

    Have you seen your doctor yet? I think it is really important to have a serious discussion with him/her re your med concerns. Does he understand that weight gain causes you anxiety? Is he willing to take another look at all of the meds you're on and consider another mix? Are you taking any meds for other reasons - such as high blood pressure, cholesterol? Could your psych meds be interacting with something else you are taking? You need someone to really look at the entire picture. I think a visit to your primary care doctor might be a good idea too.

    I want, so bad, for you to feel better. XOXO
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  12. Vash01

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    (((Gazpacho)) You are in my thoughts. Wishing you peace and happiness.
  13. Kruss

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    I'm praying for you. (((Gaspacho)))
  14. jlai

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    Let us know how you are doing. (hugs)
  15. Gypsy

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    Hugs, prayers and good thougths for you. Remember we are all here for you!!
  16. cruisin

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    HI Gapacho, hope you are feeling better. Please check in with us. We worry :).
  17. orientalplane

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    Wishing you the best; I hope you can find some peace and comfort.
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    Not necessarily nightmares, but I do have nights when I have lots of dreams so vivid and busy that I wake up feeling like I haven't slept.

    Hope you're doing well today.
  19. KCC

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    Hope things settled down a bit and you are sleeping soundly again. I wish there was more I could do to help. Have you identified anything that seems to help your situation?
  20. AragornElessar

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    Relieved to see you've checked in. I was worried, as I'm sure others around here were too. I am sorry to hear the weight gain is causing more anxity for you. ITA that you need to have a chat w/your primary doctor about a possible interaction w/other drugs or if the mix you're on needs tweaking or a total overhaul.

    Remember we're here.
  21. immoimeme

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    Hey! You started another thread in Olympics forum ! Whee! :)
  22. quartz

    quartz Point of Know Return

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    Just catching up with things here. Sending you more hugs, Gazpacho, and glad that you are communicating and sharing.
    I hope you were able to enjoy the Olympics, even though things may not have turned out they way you hoped, which I think may have been the case for many of us!
    Please continue to let us know how you are doing.
    (((((More hugs)))))
    Judi
  23. skatesindreams

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    These are my thoughts and wishes for you, as well.
  24. Gazpacho

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    Thanks again everyone. Why has it been so damn hard to get myself out of bed? The medications are exhausting me physically, so I have to sleep about 16 hours a day. But when I don't feel sleepy, shouldn't I be cherishing the feeling and doing something other than staying in bed? :(
  25. Anita18

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    Don't blame yourself for not being able to do things or feel things you want to. That's the depression talking - it doesn't mean anything about your inner character.

    Eat well and healthy if you can. Give yourself the best opportunity to get better when the depression finally lifts.
  26. cruisin

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    You will, eventually. You are going through a very stressful period. That, alone, is exhausting. Add the meds to it, and your body needs that sleep. It also probably needs to rest, even when you are not sleepy. If you don't start feeling like you have more energy soon, please go to the doctor. You could be having a reaction that is not normal for one or more of your meds, or the combination of your meds. I really wish that you would go and see your Primary Care Doc. That is your gatekeeper. Evaluate everything you are taking: all meds, supplements, diet, caffein, etc.

    Example: My Father's psychiatrist put him on Abilify. I found out and called his PC immediately. My Father was a brittle diabetic. His blood sugar, on his diabetes meds, was going up, and I didn't understand why. When my Father told me he was on Abilfy, I knew. It can raise blood sugar levels. I went crazy on his PC doctor, that he didn't monitor ALL of his meds and made him take him off of it and find something else.

    So glad that you posted, when it goes days, we really worry about you. I check the thread several times a day, just hoping for a word or two from you. Praying that you are getting some relief. Remember, we all care about you and want the best for you. XOXOXOXO!
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  27. barbk

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    What cruisin said.
  28. LilJen

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    Anita is absolutely right. All the guilty thoughts you're having about "doing nothing" are the depression lying to you. Never forget, depression lies to you.
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  29. Gazpacho

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    After some progress today (got out of the house and made a short trip to the grocery store), it's been a bad night. I haven't been able to sleep despite taking an anti-anxiety pill that normally helps me sleep. I feel agitated and restless. I still don't have the motivation to get everything in order before taking my life, but I also want this to be over with as soon as possible.
  30. cruisin

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    Gazpacho, please, please, please call your doctor. If not your psychiatrist, your primary doctor. Some meds can cause suicidal thoughts, in some people. It may be the meds doing this to you. and LilJen is right depression lies to you, it stops you from seeing hope! What can we do for you?
  31. quartz

    quartz Point of Know Return

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    This is not what I wanted to read. If you have not yet called your doctor or a help line, please do so immediately.
    Sending a huge hug out to you right now!
    Please keep posting so we can give you support and encouragement.
  32. Gypsy

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    We are here for you and we care...please call someone. I hate to see you in such misery.

    Please...you are special!!!
  33. Wyliefan

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    Seconding what everyone has said. Please call someone for help, Gazpacho. Please keep holding on and fighting your way back. We're with you, rooting for you and praying for you and wanting things to get better for you.
  34. immoimeme

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    Um. It's rather distressing post but thanks for keeping us updated. I hope you have a gd night's sleep tonight and a better tomorrow.
  35. sk8pics

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    {{{Gazpacho}}} Thank you for posting about your distress. I can only echo what others have said, that you should call someone, it might be your meds. And know that we are here for you.
  36. LilJen

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    I'm sorry this has been a wretched day, Gazpacho. hopefully by now you have gotten to talk with someone. Praying all will be well.
  37. cruisin

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    Gazpacho, I know that you feel that you want to be alone. I understand that you don't want to bring others into your nightmare. But, I want to reiterate, that is the depression talking. However you feel that others might be overwhelmed, they won't. People love you and care about you being around for a long time. You are important! Let someone in. Let someone help you. Believe me they want to. We, here on FSU, are very worried about you. We only know you through posts, and we have come to care for you, a great deal. I imagine that anyone who is lucky enough to know you, in person, adores you. If they don't know you are suffering, they can't help you. I suspect there would be many people who would feel that they let you down if something happened to you. Please, please, please, let someone help you. Fight the voice that is telling you that you should be isolated. You need someone. And we need you.
  38. iloveemoticons

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    Well said cruisin. Please let your doctor know what's happening, Gazpacho. They're there to help and they will find a way to get you feeling better.
  39. Gazpacho

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    I called the doctor's office for the second time in two days, and still no response.
  40. Wyliefan

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    :( I'm sorry to hear it. But please, keep at it. Sometimes you have to persist with these things, but it's worth it.