Echoing what has already been said, Spazactaz. I don't know what to say at all that would be of any help, but I will be praying for you. I truly believe that prayer has power, and that all the prayers that will be coming your way will help support you through this. You are a skater, and you know how to meet challenges. This is the biggest challenge of your life, and I will be praying that you are able to meet it with grace, strength, and dignity. Please continue posting if it will be helpful for you. We will all be here for you, as long as you need us. Peace be with you.